Amy is still in the midst of deschooling... Boy, is that ever harder than we expected it to be! Over, and over, last night she sat here in the family room, apologizing again for sleeping in and explaining why she is scared if she sleeps longer than what anyone else would think she should. I have to say it angered me to see her worrying so much about that! Oh, I wasn't angered by her... I was angered by The Outsiders. The people in our lives, the school system, anyone else that put that worry in her head! I will remedy that!
Cut to today:
Little by little, though, I saw glimpses that she is finally truly relaxing and realizing that she is ok to be at home, to be herself, sleeping when her body needs it, waking when her body tells her to, learning in her own way, and that a ringing phone, or a knock at the door, is not the public school system, or another authority acting on their behalf, coming to demand answers as to why she isn't in school, etc! That was one of my biggest things to get past, so I know what she is going through, but once I received our ID cards, with our Accountability Association information on it, I relaxed very quickly! Amy is seeing that in me and that will help her.
We are both finding our groove. Amy is doing what interests her and, along the way, she is finding other things that also interest her. She isn't suffering from boredom, which happened in traditional school. She is also figuring out what time of day, or night, is better suited for her to learn. And we are going to go with that because this is about her, what she needs and wants, and not what others think she needs, wants, or should have.
If only I could get back all the years that we lost due to not doing this way back when we first wanted to, when our other 4 kids would have reaped the benefits of an adventure like the one we are having now! To them I apologize.
Until Next Time.....
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